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Stay at Home Mum vs Working Mum - The Inner Struggle!

So I'm currently having a huge inner struggle - Should I continue to be a stay at home mum or should I become a working mum?

 I'm one of these people who always has to be doing something..stay inside too long and I go crazy and because of this I always thought I'd end up being a working mum. I was a stay at home mum for the first year of Lily's life and to be honest I struggled with it quite a lot - I think because she was so little and the weather was always so awful we ended up staying inside all the time, which resulted in a lot of cabin fever for me. When Lily turned one I went back to uni to finish the last year of my degree and whilst I enjoyed exercising my brain again I hated being away from Lily a lot more than I thought I would. Uni was a lot of work and I often wouldn't be home till late evening and when I was home I constantly had exam revision and dissertation work on my mind. I felt like I was missing all the important stages in her life, the walking and the talking stages especially and I actually found myself longing for the days of just me and Lily alone in our little flat spending all of our time together. 

I graduated uni last July and have been a full time stay at home mum to Lily for the last 6 months. I'm really loving it and finding it so much easier than when she was a little baby. I love the age she's at now, love the little adventures we go on together and just love the overall routine we've got going on right now. I feel like we're so close, she's my best bud and I want to appreciate the time we have left together before she starts pre school.
On the flip slide however me and James had agreed from the get go that once I'd graduated Uni I'd start looking for work. Whilst I was at uni it was fine because I was getting student grants etc but now there's only one of us working we're beginning to struggle financially. Money worries are the worst, as I'm sure a lot of you know, and with baby plans and plans to buy a house in the not so near future I feel like time is ticking for me to get a job.

Choosing to stay at home with Lily will probably result in us having to push back both of these plans  yet getting a job will mean losing the time I have left with lily before she starts pre school. Oh what to do what to do!

Have any of you experienced this kind of struggle before? What did you end up doing? Would love to hear your stories.


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