First day of Reception - All the feels

I'm writing this whilst my feelings are still raw having just dropped Lily off for her first day of reception. I usually save writing for when Archer is napping since he is obviously distracting as heck but I wanted to get out my initial emotions so I can look back and remember how I was feeling after drop off. I feel more emotional than I thought I would. I think I was totally naive in thinking that I wouldn't feel massively anxious for her. Because I know how ready she is, how excited and how long she's been counting down the days. And also because when she had her settling in morning at the start of summer she was absolutely fine and ran off without a backward glance, I sort of presumed it would be a case of the same. But today I could sense her nerves. As soon as we stepped into the classroom and a name sticker was placed on her cardigan and she was asked to choose what she wanted for her lunch. She became a little clingy and cuddly and her being nervous made me equally as nervous. Of course it's normal for her to be this way, and I should have prepared myself a bit more for it really. Even if she was fine on her settling in day, this is her first proper day and first time wearing her uniform which probably made it a lot more real and scary for her. She was fine though. went and happily sat on the carpet after we received several tighter than normal cuddles. And then it was just me left feeling like I didn't want to let go. And now I'm at home I can't help feeling like I've left her to fend for herself in the big wide world. Which is silly of course it is, it's only school. But I guess to them it really is like the big wide world. And I so just want her to be happy, and to have a nice first day. and for other kids not to be mean to her. Fingers crossed that's the case. I can't believe we're finally here. My first born. My only daughter. The one that made me into mum, at the age of 21 and in the middle of my student days. And now I have a school girl. I'm so proud of how far she's come and how far we've both come together. Do you have a little one starting school today? How are you feeling about it? (JTA: she came back from school saying "it was amazing and I tried my cottage pie and actually liked it and ate it all up!" Then I asked her to rate her day out of 10 and she said "10/10 actually no 60/60!" clearly I was worried for nothing!)

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