We're ready for you

Dear baby girl

I'm so sorry I haven't blogged your pregnancy in the way I did with your big brother and sister.

See, your pregnancy has been different to my others in that it's been 9 months of upset. To put it bluntly. Medical conditions that have drained me to the core and for my own sanity I haven't been able to talk about never mind write it down on here. I just haven't felt ready and I'm not sure if I ever will be. I hope you can understand.

It's not the way I envisioned my last pregnancy going because I so wanted to enjoy the journey this one last time. But isn't that just the way life works? Things can go tits up. And they quite often do. And this pregnancy has been the very definition of that but do you know what? It doesn't matter. It doesn't matter one little bit because you're happy and healthy in there and I'm so in love with you already I cant even begin to describe.

Despite the set backs I've still experienced all the incredible things about pregnancy over the last 9 months that I love so much. Seeing that heartbeat for the first time. Feeling the first kick and finding our your gender. Listening to your siblings lay their head on my stomach and talk to you. It's made everything so worth it.

And now we're finally here at the end of our journey. Today is induction day!

I'm more than a little nervous because 36 weeks is the earliest I've been induced before and I just want you to be okay. But mostly, I feel good about this. It's the right decision and we're all so incredibly ready to meet you now.

See you soon sweetheart.

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