We're back from our weekend to Scarborough! and although we were only away four days it felt like weeks, it really did. But in a good way. It was every bit as hectic as I thought it would be - me and the kids, my parents and my two younger brothers all cooped up in this tiny little caravan. But it was also fantastic. A chance for adventures, cheesy butlins style children's shows and for the kids to spend quality time with their uncles. Lily loved every second of it and I soaked up every second of her joy. Her happiness is my happiness and I love how into it all she was. It made the weekend so special.
I made the decision not to vlog or take my DSLR to Scarborough and so I have no photos of videos from the trip. But it was so unbelievably relaxing, just sitting back and watching the kids play rather than watching them through a camera screen and trying to decide what would make the best photo or what might be good video footage. The caravan had no wifi either and so I was totally distant from social media. No constant scrolling of Instagram or checking of work emails. Yes it was a trip that was beyond exhausting, but I've also never felt so refreshed.
The surprising way the weekend has made me feel, combined with the horrific event in Manchester and the grieving parents and families that are never too far from my mind at the moment, I've been thinking about maybe taking a step back from my computer and trying to be more present and in the moment. There's a quote I read somewhere recently that went something along the lines of
'We miss so much, by worrying about missing it.' And that's exactly what I don't want to do. I capture so much of our lives because I'm scared of missing it, I want to preserve memories for my children. Something solid that can left behind after I'm gone, for them to remember us and our lives together by. But in doing so I'm probably missing so much myself. Maybe it's time to focus more on the 'real world'. It's something to ponder on for sure. Now onto this weeks Little Loves..